What we don’t realise is that we don’t have a clue what is around the corner. We plod along in our day to day lives thinking about things we could do in the future. Well this Cancer of mine has taught me that there is no point in doing that. Live in the now and do what you want to do all of the time. I can’t believe how much we stress about saving for the future and the obsession with owning property and all the costs that go along with it. Those things are so not important in reality. I mean I am not the best at saving and planning retirement, it’s never been the focus for me. But I have been somewhat conservative in my approach. None of that means anything anymore, I just want to be healthy and happy, and share my life with Nathan and all our friends. I have some focus now. It’s not about the material things.

Today was a great day at work, my work wife Debbie was hosting an event to celebrate 10 years of top training for VIP Corporate Flight Attendants and Pilots at TAG Global Training. We should celebrate like that every day. It’s uplifting. At my desk it has been manic trying to fill vacancies and organise trial flights and cover freelance requirements. It’s actually a bit mental at the moment. I’m not complaining lol the company makes money and I’m a happy bunny and it of course justifies my existance 😉 We all want to succeed it’s just natural.

I had this funny thing bothering me today, I could feel something unusual near the area where I had the lump removed in November. I remember asking Dr A where it could come back again, and he said most probably in the same place, sure enough I think he right! I am feeling a tiny lump under the skin just above the scar. SHIT FUCK! It really has it in for me lol! I’m not in panic mode but you become more aware of your body once this big ‘C’ happens to you. And you really pay attention to your body in a very obsessive way.

Took a selfie tonight, not bad if I say so myself. I want as many pictures of me looking normal and healthy. Not bad for a 50 year old git 😉

All ready for Nathan to arrive. He will be arriving at Gatwick just after 11pm, can’t wait. I will go pick him up and bring him home for more cuddles with the best. The weekend can never come quick enough because that’s our time. I am planning a birthday bash for Nathan on Feb 11th here down south. It’s going to be a month of celebrating as the boy turns 40. I remember mine like it was yesterday, but it was over 10 years ago haha! My 50th rocked though, some things get better with age. Like a fine wine lol – Yes Karen its true 🙂

I want to say thank you to all my tribe and there are too many to name but you all know who you are. I am blessed and touched by all your thoughts and prayers. I am well supported and I thank God every day for that.

Have a great weekend everyone. Peace out!