Well folks another week gone by and once again had a great weekend in lovely Cardiff. I tell you once I am on that bridge I know I am home, a very nice feeling. Yes but of course that’s because there is a special boy there waiting for me πŸ˜‰ Got there on Friday (in record time too for a change!) and made a nice dinner for Nathan and then just got cozy with all my boys on the sofa. What better way to spend a Friday night with the ones you love. Apart from the fact I cracked and lost part of a filling from a tooth right at the back while chomping on some cashews! What next??!! Luckily not painful at all but is someone trying to tell me something. More shit! Luckily having been to the dentist today its just going to be another big filling £££. First good news in ages!

We have started going to the gym whilst in Cardiff as well which is really what is needed after the over indulgent ever lasting Christmas feasts haha! I really miss the weekend gym sessions with Bernie. I used to do 4 sessions a weekend with PT and classes. Definately lost some definition and gonna get it back, watch this space. Back on the Pro Gains meals big time. Healthy eating is the way forward. 70% diet and 30% fitness.

Nathan had planned for us to take the boys to Barry Island or as they like to call it Barrybados πŸ™‚ We took the train and headed there Saturday afternoon, sun was out until we got there. The boys love being on the beach and I really enjoyed it too! It started to rain but nevertheless had a great time. Even bumped into Sue and her mum and had a lovely catch up with them on the beach. The world is a small place sometimes. We had some lunch and the mandatory bottle of wine, just because it was so cold of course πŸ˜‰

Walks with the boys, home cooked dinners (well mainly – maybe a little Tesco Finest lasagna snuck in there lol ) and just some quiet time together is what this weekend was all about and it was exactly the medicine I needed. Did I ever mention I have an awesome boyfriend?

Back to work Monday and the week started off with issues with a charter flight and I won’t go into details but I was not in the greatest of moods. Had to head to Stansted with Denis after work and pack duvets and bed linen in big suitcases to send to Accra with Lana. Bless her, I really was not happy about sending her on her own and I just couldn’t convince anyone otherwise. Head of department and you are not allowed to make decisions that concern your staff. Not to mention we needed more hands on deck for this type of charter. Bless Denis he saw that side of me I don’t normally show in an open office ! Woke at 545 am, got to the office for 10 after the drive from Cardiff and then we got home from Stansted at 1015 pm. Long day. Passion for the job, yes.

Got my letter from the hospital late last week and it stated I was going to see Dr Ivanov. I thought I was going to have a bone marrow biopsy. I am now wondering what is going on. How come I have not heard from the specialist in London which I was supposed to meet. Guess I need the test first? In limbo once again.

Just got back with Denis from the docs and guess what, Dr Ivanov informed me he was going to perform the biopsy himself, he said he has the reputation for being the most gentle…and that was not far from the truth. The other doctor was away until mid February so he didn’t want to delay any further. Well that suspense was over as I wondered why he wanted to see me again. He was actually surprised I hadn’t heard from the other doctor who I am going to see for the 2nd opinion, but without this test it would not have happened in any case. I really enjoy Dr Ivanov and his bedside manner. He comes from a family of Haematologists and that says everything.

Time to get down to business. What is it with all the Scottish nurses in Crawley, they are like angels, today’s was no exception. She was so full of life and people like that give you hope and faith. And she loves a photo bomb as well!


The procedure was to be as follows; local and more local to make sure I don’t feel anything. The worst was the first needle then after that it was just a strange sensation of pulling and grinding bone. Its not what you feel but what you hear. Dr Ivanov has excellent technique and is very witty at the same time. The nurse said I could sing but I am not very good at that. The whole procedure made me feel quite weak and sickly, it’s not like it’s relaxing or anything.

I explain to Dr Ivanov why Denis is taking pictures and videos in the background, much to his surprise! I say its not for litigation purposes but as I am writing a blog it’s great to document everything and its my own kind of therapy. His response was a very serious I would have had a hair cut if I had known! lol You can imagine the atmosphere as I am having a giant needle shoved in my ass and then a scalpal in the tube and he is grinding away at my hip bone! Yikes! The procedure lasted probably 10 mins total so one can’t really complain.

The nurse then says you can have a nice cup of tea when you are done and I say ‘No Thanks can’t think of anything worse!’ Denis says we are not English we don’t drink tea. I add my 2 cents worth and say I need a vodka! Dr Gleb Ivanov says yes vodka….and he starts his story of how he made Horseradish voddie at Christmas and his wife loves it too! It resembles wasabi and is as strong as that! We then move on to the topic of caviar and the proper Russian way of having it, he likes it with baguette, no crust I might add! Glasses for the vodka must come from the freezer and the vodka too! A doctor after my own heart. We like the finer things in life. He brought home 2.5 kgs from his last visit home to Belarus before the holidays. Hardcore. Are we sure we are at the doctors?


The results will take a week or so and he will also be analysing the samples himself. If you ever wanted to see what bone marrow looks like check out the header picture. Got to love medicine sometimes. So let’s wait once again and see. Prayers for a clear result are most welcome as this will determine a lot for me. Is this fucking cancer still in my body, if so I need to rid myself of it, but how we do that I am not sure of yet.

In my conversation with the doctor I mentioned Germany and he completely dissed it saying they are not doing any miracles there. I said well a lot of people come from near and far to be treated there. It’s amazing how many doctors are afraid of alternative methods of treating deadly diseases. There has got be some other option than the one I have been given, there just has to be.

Looking forward to the weekend and Nathan’s arrival. We are out to dinner in London on Saturday with Cynthia and then a lazy Sunday with roast dinner. Gym every day and normal life resumes until we know the resuts of this next piece of the puzzle. We have loads of plans and I am working on making sure we can fit everything in. In the meantime I am fit and healthy. I can’t be ill because I don’t feel ill. Until next time. Thanks for reading and I really do feel the love.

Let’s see how I feel when the local wears off….

****Update… have now got my appointment with Dr A in London at UCH on Wednesday 25th @ 4pm for my 2nd opinion****


  1. Dearest Mark,
    After knowing you for 30 years I have finally seen a side of you I have never seen before lol nice underwear! πŸ˜‰ Sending you prayers by the plane load my dear friend for a clean scan from the bone marrow biopsy. I am so proud of how you are handling this journey of yours…with such grace and humour! Always in my thoughts, love you! Karen xxx ❀

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Hey Karen thanks I know never shown that side of me before but honestly I am on a journey. A journey I didn’t plan on nevertheless its a part of life I have not faced before but hey why not me. I love and miss you dearly. Thanks for being there throughout this and beyond this too. XX Mark


  2. Hi Mark
    Only just read your blog I have been out all evening. When you said procedure earlier I though you meant your tooth 😝 So pleased you have had it done sounds horrendous bless you. I am saying more prayers for you , that you get good results. Thinking of you
    Have a lovely weekend with your man love ya loads xx

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Hey Pammy sorry for confusion as didn’t realise I was having the procedure until I got there. Not good comms but it’s done now so we wait and see. Love you loads and thanks for the support always. Xx Mark


  3. Hello my darling,
    I’ve just finished reading all of the January blog inbetween customer’s. It feels like i’m with you in England. Thank you for taking the time to do this.
    I am glad you are being looked after so well by Nathan, Denis, the Dr’s and all your friends. What a great bunch of people that surround you.
    I’m sending you the biggest hug, lots of positive energy & love.❀️❀️Dominic sends his hug too! Xxx

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Hi Mandie darling,
      Thanks for the support and the love. Wish we were closer to meet more often. It’s times like this when you know what matters, friends matter. Love to you and Dominic XXX


  4. Good luck today Markie πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»
    You’re a hero!
    Just no more photo bombs… I want to get the full Monty πŸ˜‰
    Keep me posted
    Sending out positive vibes and good karma
    You’ve got thisπŸ‘πŸΌ

    Liked by 1 person

  5. Great butt babe!

    Oh gosh! I love the photos!!!!! and I like this team at the hospital …. photo bombing and a doctor with a sense of humor!!! OMYG that is SO rare! I think I might have to come and see this Dr. Ivanov! what a great fun crowd to have around you at such vulnerable and tough times! Please say a big HI from NZ when you see them next!

    It is amazing what the fun energy can do for your health πŸ™‚

    Keep strong and positive my beautiful, beautiful friend! You are constantly in my thoughts and yes, you ROCK!

    Loads of love and hugs from Down Under NZ… yours KJ xxxxxxxx

    Liked by 1 person

    1. I am really blessed with my team. I know exactly what you mean. Life is what you make it. It’s our choice to make it good or bad. Even in the dark times we have to remember the small things in life and the importance of treating people well. Right now I am inspired by the Shania song ‘C’est la Vie’ from the UP album remember that one? Love you KJ and we must catch up soon! XXX Mark


      1. Oh I remember Shaina’s song… C’est la Vie …. I was actually listening to it last night and again on the way to work this morning! How spooky is that! Love it! Love it! Fab song and inspirational indeed!

        Have a fantastic evening and a fantastic Friday tomorrow ……. Enjoy your weekend too and love and hugs to Nathan! See you on FT soon!

        Love you to the moon and back!
        KJ xxxxx

        Liked by 1 person

      2. Thanks my darling KJ you are surely one of those people I have been fortunate enough to meet in my life. C’est la vie…..that’s life and that’s how its gonna be, hold tight it comes right eventually. Love you and will try and FT you this weekend when Nathan is here with me. XXX Mark


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s