People are that awesome and I am fortunate to know so many of them. I wanted to mention that my dear friend Karen from Canada sent me a big bunch of armbands. You know the type of armbands you buy in support of various charities. They come in all colour combinations. Karen did some research on the internet and lime green colour represents the Lymphoma fight. Not only are they lime green but they have the following messages embedded on them; ‘Mark’s Fight’ and ‘Fuck Cancer’. Karen wanted to be able to show her love and support for me from across the pond. I have put mine on and will keep it there throughout this battle of mine. I gave the 2nd one to Nathan. I do have quite a few extra if that appeals to anyone. Love you Karen Smith! ❀


This week has been a bit busy with arranging doctors appointments on the run up to treatment, getting insurance authorisations etc. Went to see Dr Ivanov as I really felt I wanted to let him know what I had decided to do. I will miss meeting him and he really is an amazing person. My appointment was midday so I was suited and booted for work. Once I was ushered in to his office I told him I decided to dress for the occasion lol to which he smiled and laughed. I had all my reports from Dr Marcus and the results of my PET scan to hand. He had met Dr Marcus and he was happy I had decided to move forward with the regime. He asked to be kept in copy of my progress and still went on about how he felt that the local NHS care was as good. Not to mention that by the time I met Dr Ivanov this past week I had seen Dr Marcus twice and had another PET scan. Albeit we are right back with the original treatment plan I did want to exhaust every option first. There is a method to my madness.

Had a great chat with Sam B at work, he himself had a brain tumour and I watched his journey as he continued working a reduced roster at work over the past year, but he needed to be as normal as possible. We spoke candidly and we laughed as well there is no other way to deal with life’s challenges! He was giving me tips on what shampoo and conditioner to use when your hair grows back after treatment haha! Love him. He like everyone I know said if you ever want to talk…his advice stay positive. I am certainly trying to do that.

Had a lovely email from Isabelle who used to work for me. It was really touching and I must say I am always moved by other people’s perception of me in this situation. I really appreciate all the lovely messages I receive, emails, texts, whats apps. Thank you to all of you who take time out to check on me and you know who you are.

I gave the gym a tough run this past week and went almost every day. Workouts, Circuits, Body Attack yes bloody Body Attack! Its hell but I love it. A few hard workouts with Bernie was exactly what I needed. My body needed some rest over the weekend. Yikes I mean after having the previous week away from it all, it really did me in. But that’s a good thing right?

Kirsty from LMC was in touch on Friday and said they they were going to share my blog via their Facebook and Twitter accounts. I love Kirsty and she is really a force to be reckoned with. I had already thought about this when she mentioned it previously. After all it’s not my profession and really it’s just me telling my story. It really is a great way of possibly helping others through this. Even if it only helped one person I would be happy. I had loads of hits on my blog following that. Not that it matters to me.

Saturday night was another party for Nathan’s 40th, this time a surprise party hosted by his bestie Louise along with CJ. I knew about this a few weeks ago and I did so well in keeping it from Nathan. Loads of his friends and family were there. Pictures of him at all ages were hung all over the house, it was brilliant. At this rate Nathan will be 50 soon! lol. It was a great evening with great people. I love seeing that Nathan gets spoiled and that his mates love him so much. You can tell so much about someone by the company they keep πŸ˜‰ Nathan’s mum asked me for an armband, as did CJ and Louise. ❀ I am not asking anyone to wear one, it just touches me that someone would.


Had a bit of a meltdown last night when heading to bed. I can be so fine for a period of time and then it just hits me. My mind just goes to a dark place. I cried myself to sleep, but in the arms of the boy who has my heart. He is there for me and it’s ok to be afraid and scared, it’s not going to be a walk in the park.

We had a nice day today long walks with Bentley. We ended up heading back to Pets at Home and getting him some more new gear. Β It’s nice to be able to spoil Bentley and it seems he has settled in really well. Nathan gave him a bath today with some new Blueberry shampoo to keep his coat really white, it smells lush too! There is a lot of love to give around here. We had a Sunday roast which is one of favourite meals and Bentley had his too lol. We love to eat.

Early tomorrow morning it will be time to head back south. I want to get on the road early as have to be in London at 1 pm for some ECG tests and then my appointment with the Cardiologist, Dr Alex Lyon. Denis will be coming along with me and I really appreciate all the support from him. Just ticking another box in order to be prepared for treatment after our holiday this coming week in Florence. I know someone that can’t fucking wait. Wait I know 2 people πŸ™‚ This will be our first holiday together and I am so pleased we will be able to make it before I have to get ready for the fight.

Love to all of you.





  1. Romantic Florence- beautiful πŸ’™You can roll around and immerse yourself in the best food this planet has to offer!!😍😍😍 Will be such a special trip to get into the headspace to prep for the next few months πŸ’ͺ🏼πŸ’ͺ🏼πŸ’ͺπŸΌπŸ‘ŠπŸΌπŸ‘ŠπŸΌπŸ’«πŸ’–

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  2. Florence how beautiful ❀️ I would love to have a band please. Your a strong cookie with so much love around you. With you every step of the way πŸ™ŒπŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜‚

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  3. I am thinking of you all the time Mark theres a lot of scary stuff for you to get through but I know you have the strength to do it , you are such a strong person. Have a fabulously romantic time in Florence with Nathan🍾🍸🌹 love you loads 😍😘xxxxx

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    1. Hey Pammy I know I am in good hands now everyone including doctors and nurses are amazing. You my buddies are so awesome, I am so touched. We shall enjoy the holiday (1st holiday together) Love you too ❀ xxx Mark


      1. Yes first holiday for you together I am very excited about that for you. πŸΈπŸΎπŸ˜πŸ‘¨β€β€οΈβ€πŸ’‹β€πŸ‘¨xxxx


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