I received my results a few weeks ago now with regards to that horrible ‘thing’ on my temple and it’s ……wait for it….an age thing and had the treatment with the dermatologist right there and then. They use liquid nitrogen and freeze that bastard. It made me laugh as Bernie was with me and then once the doctor had said its all good, it’s not cancer, I asked how to go about treatment to get rid of it. Dr Sewell said I thought you might like to have it treated right here and now, so here is the liquid nitrogen I prepared earlier. Love that they know how I like to deal with issues. Painful, yes, but on a positive note it’s only cosmetic!

A few weeks later I return to see Dr Sewell and go figure, it’s completely gone. For those of you interested in this sort of thing its called and Irritated SEBORRHOEIC KERATOSES, that’s a mouthful aka basal cell papillomas. They are benign growths due to a build-up of skin cells. SK are very common, harmless, often pigmented, growths on the skin. In the UK more than half the men and more than a third of women would have at least one SK. By the age of 40, 30% of the population would be affected while at the age of 70 it increases to 75%. They are not infectious and do not become skin cancer. I would have been a lot more relaxed about it, except at the back of your mind, there is the big ‘C’ and all the treatment I had last year. Sometimes I wonder how Nathan puts up with me. ❤

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What a difference a year makes (left 2018 – right 2017)

Looking back now at this time last year I look at the images above, and can safely say I don’t recognise the person I was in 2017. It was a hell of a year physically and mentally. What lies ahead, who knows. You can only take one day at a time.

Remember in the last blog I was mentioning about my dear friend Diane. Well, she has a new prosthetic eye called ‘Eileen’ as in Come on Eileen and coincidentally that was my mum’s name too! She has been soldiering on through this horrific ordeal of hers, back to work, handling every day as it comes.  I swear it’s hardly noticeable now to me and many others, but I know she is deeply affected by it. Not just the fact she has lost an eye, but that the possibility of spread is very high.

Last week she received the results she was waiting for and here they are. Some very medical tech talk, but you will get the gist of it.

“Pretty shit news worst combination of cell mix possible.
87 out of 100 cells analysed showed monosomy 3 and 92 our of 100 cells showed a gain of 2-3 copies of 8q24.
Prognosis = Poor

Not a question of if it spreads but when. The average time to spread is 4-5 years but some are much quicker and others longer – prognosis once spread is 6 month – 2 years. The only positive is that I should qualify for any clinical trials but there are none at the moment, only ones after it has spread.”

It’s devastating to receive such news. How would you feel or cope with that kind of prognosis? People just tell you it will be ok, you will be fine, you can fight this, you are a fighter etc. But really people just don’t know how to be when they are around you. They simply don’t know what to say, to be honest. You can be surrounded by people all the time because they want you to feel like you are not alone, but you are actually very alone. People are scared of how you will react to what they will say. I know, it was the same for me last year, except, my prognosis is different, it can actually come back and the first 2 years are normally when it re-appears. I am a realist.

You just want to wrap your arms around her and cry, because that is the most natural way to feel. Meltdowns are going to happen, you can’t not think about the next scan, when will it spread. How will I cope, how will my family and friends cope.

In chatting to her last week she mentioned that she has decided to Opt out of the company pension scheme, and well doesn’t that just become real? Why worry about when you are going to retire when you know you are probably not going to see it. I immediately thought, what am I doing? I don’t know the future either, I don’t have a crystal ball. A day later I had opted out as well. We need the money now, to enjoy life in the present. Somehow that makes a whole lot of sense to me.

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My new plane spotter geek

What is the saying about ‘On a clear day’ you can see forever and ever. I better get back to my ‘wedmin’ as it’s a lot to keep up with and it’s getting closer every month. Excited, just a little! Eeek!

Until next time, Love and Light X

Mark

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8 Comments

  1. Hey Mark glad your age thing has gone and nothing to worry about there. I can’t believe how you have come through this last year you have been amazing and kept all our spirits up at the same time when we didn’t know how to react to it. We love you 😍 .

    Poor poor Diane I to want to cry for her what an awful awful time she is having send our love and tell her we are thinking of her and sending 😇😇 .

    My mums name was Eileen to 😇

    Looking forward to the wedding it will be here before you know it.
    Lots of love of love from us both Pammy and Keith xxx😘

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    1. Hey Pammy yes I am lucky to have the results I have now but never for a moment do I think I am free forever. it’s just something you have to live with. Glad I kept your spirits up during that time, there is no other way.

      I will pass on your wishes to Diane as well. I know she will appreciate that.

      See you soon, lots of Love, Mark XXX

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  2. Happy to hear your scare wasn’t nearly as bad as you’d feared. You obviously have the right idea- enjoy life in the present. Saving for a rainy day isn’t always a bad idea, but it’s even more important to enjoy the “now”. 😊

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  3. Hi Marky Mark,

    Sat here in Brisbane having my BF and read Your Story.

    So glad to hear your thingy on your temple was an age thing and that you got it frozen off there and then. Phew!
    I then read about Diane. I am so sorry to hear this Mark. Although I don’t know her, I can feel for her and I wish her the best of everything!

    I am really excited to be coming to your wedding and will arrive about a week before.
    Your photos of last year and now have truely shown how far you have come. You have always been a handsome man.

    Much Love always.

    Mandie xxx

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    1. Hey Mandie Candie,

      Yes it’s all good now. I am happy with the results and that it is gone. You do worry about these things. I need to start my R&F!! Still haven’t because of that issue.

      I will pass on your wishes to Diane as well. I know she will appreciate.

      Yes, wedding coming up quick now eek! Exciting. Will be amazing to have you all here for the big day!

      Love ya

      Mark XX

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  4. Dear Mark,
    We are delighted to hear that “the age thing” has be taken away and all is well and clear for you. Looked at the photos – the girls and I agreed that you look handsome in both photos!

    Absolutely heartbroken for your friend Diane. What an awful awful time poor Diane is going through!! Although I have not met Diane, my heart goes out to her and we will keep her in our thoughts and prayers. Please tell her she is in our thoughts. I just do not know why good people have to go through such dreadfully cruel times. Thankfully, she has good and supportive friends like yourself.

    Nathan keeps us updated with the wedding news. Preps are progressing so well and it is getting very exciting. You both have so much to look forward to.
    V
    Sending lots of love, Mon, Reg & the girls xxxx

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    1. Thanks for your lovely words Monica, they mean a lot.
      Yes Diane is going through a really tough time but she also amazes me. She is still the same person when you meet her, although I know that on the inside she is struggling with prognosis. But alas I intend to be there for her as much as I can and as much as she allows.
      Wedding plans are coming together nicely so yes it is very very exciting.
      Lot’s of love to you all . Mark xxx

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