Well the week has passed quickly and here we are again, almost the weekend. The weekend means Nathan time 🙂 I’ll be heading back to Cardiff later on today and can’t wait to get some cuddles from my boy. He has had a very busy week after being off with very long days and I think his feet might be in need of a rub later tonight. Standing on those trotters all day long is tough lol.

The ‘fog’ has cleared a lot this week but still there are good days and there are bad ones too. Monday and Tuesday were fine but Wednesday I woke up and felt like I had been hit by a bus, literally. Maybe I did too much too soon, hit the gym and back to work, trying to get back into routine again. Thursday was also a good day and hopefully I will feel normalish over the weekend. Work has been great and managed to catch up on loads of issues and it’s great to know I haven’t fallen behind at all. It was great to see Denis as well, my faithful friend is always there when I need him. So many nice wishes of congratulations from colleagues on my engagement to Nathan, it really touches me that people are so caring. More lovey engagement cards as well this week.

Monday night I was invited to dinner at Pascale’s as I hadn’t seen her in while and it was long overdue. It was great to catch up and she wanted to know about our holiday and everything lol. I had a bit of a meltdown when talking about how great Nathan is dealing with my problem and that he has rearranged his work to be there for my chemo sessions. I Just couldn’t hold back the tears then and for most of the evening. Sometimes it’s stronger than me.

Back in the gym on Tuesday it was Rob’s last CT class as he is moving on and the gang was reunited for a bitch of a class. Like we were ever going to have it easy haha! Pammy, Bella, Norma, Edith and Alison in the house. We all stayed for coffee afterwards as we really are going to miss Rob. He has a great personality and knows how to handle us unruly bunch. Now we will have to break in a new one. Pammy and I did Em’s Body Attack class on Thursday morning and fuck it was tough. I really didn’t think I could do it, but hey! I think it helps to be active throughout this process. I don’t think I can handle the same level right now and it’s just finding the right balance. I am so concerned about weight gain, but luckily have shed a bit this week, most probably a combination of eating like a pig last week and being bloated from all the poison in my body. Still can’t really taste anything properly. Tried a glass of wine and it tasted vile. I think I will stick to voddie lol.

I am truly blessed to have such great people in my life. It’s only at times like this that you truly appreciate how important that is.  Lovely messages and chats with Kata, Chris T, Chrissypoo, Norma, Hans Ru, Mandie, Loraine & Rob, Sarah K, Thora and Una. Nathan told me a few of his colleagues in the salon were asking for arm bands. That is just unreal as I hardly know any of them that well.

This weekend will be nice and chilled, long walks with my boys and will try to fit in some gym time too. I am seriously thinking of changing cars now as with Bentley in our lives a Z4 is not very practical. Thinking of a 4×4 or something like that. I have had 2 seaters now since 2003 and I think it may be time to be more practical?

On Monday it’s back to the LOC for blood tests to see how I am reacting to the treatment with regards to white blood cells. They do this to ensure you are ready for the next CHOP a week later. I do accept that this shit kills cancer but it also kills the good in you too. Not really looking forward to the next chapter on the 28th but at least I know what to expect now. It’s the days following that I dread. Get used to it, I don’t think so. But if this is what is necessary to have hope for a future then bring it on.

On a positive note it feels like spring is on the way, and that really helps cheer things up. Have a great weekend all. Peace out.