It’s been a very strange week and my sleep pattern is completely fucked up. After driving back from Cardiff on Monday I had to go to the LOC in London to have my blood checked. I thought that was going to be fairly routine as I didn’t feel particularly unwell. I was actually confident that I would be in and out. Wrong lol! Whilstย  I was in the waiting room the lovely Anette who I had met on my first session visit came over to chat to me. A room full of people and she is stopping to talk to me and people must have been wondering who is this guy she is talking to? She recommended I stay for the results in case anything needed to be discussed. After about 20 minutes after being drained yet again I was ushered downstairs to the chemotherapy suite and one of the nurses, Jo, sat me down to discuss my results.

Well I knew at this point it was not going to be straightforward. Jo explains that my white blood cells are not as good as they could be and I will now require some injections of GCSF in order to force white cells to be produced. Wow I was not expecting this if I am honest and it was another one of those things where you think when will this all end. Jo who is absolutely lovely explains she is waiting for Dr Marcus to come back to her as I will probably need to come back every day for 5 days for these injections. My heart sunk at that point. How can this be possible I thought to myself and I can’t be travelling to London every day. Jo says there is another way, you can inject yourself if I teach you today. Well as surprised as I was, I immediately said yes, thinking WTF how will I manage that. I used to be terrified of injections and needles of any kind. I guess once you are constantly being pricked you just get over that. Yikes.

Jo comes over with what she called a goodie bag with things I will need including a sharps box, my very own lol. Anette walks by again and says there is no better teacher than Jo. Jo tells me to grab hold of my belly fat after cleaning the area (I have gained some of that over the last few months), aim and then just insert the syringe and then inject the contents then voila. I sat there with this syringe in my hand for a good few minutes thinking can I really do this, am I really going to do this DIY style?? Shit, ok the alternative is coming in every day. OK deep breath and lets have a go! I have included some graphic photos of my recent home session so you can get the gist of it. Apologies for those who are a bit squeamish haha. I’ll be a pro soon!

Ready, steady….
OMG going for it!
All done!

If you think the injections are an issue it’s really the side effects that get you. The best way to describe it is like you have been hit by a bus. That feeling when you have a really intense flu and have aches and pains and just feel like crap. Your bone marrow is being forced to produce white cells just like it does when you have a real flu and a high temperature. You have to monitor your temperature all the time, they worry so much about infection and the fact you have to get to the hospital in 1 hour max if this happens to you. This really has been more intense than the actual chemo. Can’t wait to finish the last one later today and start feeling normalish again. I am gagging for a good nights sleep with Nathan when he gets here tonight. I need my cuddles you see.

Been a busy week with work too and been back at the gym Wed-Fri mornings trying to keep as active as possible, even though I may not have leaped out of bed in anticipation lol. On Tuesday I decided to call my local garage and see if the Land Rover I had seen on line was still there and unfortunately it had been sold on the weekend. I was gutted but Paul my sales guy asked if I had seen the BMW X3 on the website and it may be worth looking at. So I headed there on route to work and took it for a test drive and decided this is what I needed now that I am a family man! As will be picking up Nathan and Bentley late Friday evening it all made sense. Within the hour I managed to go from a 2 seater sports car to a small jeep haha! The X3 is not new by far, 2008 but in pristine condition with low mileage and it’s a diesel which means I can cut down on petrol costs. Bonus! I just hate the thought of buying a brand new car and its value decreases so quickly. So there you go, hopefully picking it up today.

The Family Car

I had my Swiss boy Hans-Ru over this week to catch on work issues and it was great to see him and spend some time together. Hans-Ru is our Cabin Crew Manager in Geneva and does such a great job there. We have become very good friends outside of work too over the years we have been working together. He always stays with me instead of a hotel and he has been quite concerned for me and wanted to give me a big hug too! Lot’s of laughter and a few glasses shared together. Denis spent some time with us too which is always great. It’s good to exchange ideas and thoughts in the business we are in.



I really am so fortunate to have such great friends around me. Constant messages from them all checking in on how I am. Sometimes it’s hard to keep up with the all and reply. Had some great FT chats with Karen, Thora and Una (who are in Italy and will be popping in on Tuesday for a few hours on the way home to Iceland). Messages from Frankie, Sue, Bella, Andrea, Becs, Natalie and Laetitia. Laetitia gave Nathan and I this wonderful framed print for our engagement and it was so personal and we are both truly touched. XX


Caught up with gang at the gym as well this week; Gilly, Pammy, Norma, Chrissypoo. Even managed two awesome sessions with Bernie this week and more on the weekend hopefully. I can’t wait to see my boys tonight and Miss Pascale can’t wait to see Bentley too. Gonna enjoy the weekend cause on Tuesday I am back in London for my chemo session and luckily with my fiance by my side.

Wishing you all a great weekend ahead. X




  1. I like the injection pics because this is the reality and shows bravery (I hate needles too!) maybe someone reading your blog who is going through their own journey would find encouragement seeing it’s possible to take some ownership of their treatment ๐Ÿ’–. You don’t have to worry about work anyway- Nat’s, me and the lovely crew will do our best job (as always!) Xxx

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    1. Hey Lana I never worry about you guys other than sending you on your own to Africa! LOL. I know all of you do an amazing job and it’s appreciated. I can’t say I love needles now but I am passed it all now, just have to get rid of this and move on with the next chapter of my life XX

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      1. 100%!! I can’t even pretend I understand but I can totally see the need to close this chapter! Plus a wedding to plan :)) ๐Ÿคต๐Ÿผ๐Ÿคต๐Ÿฝxxx

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  2. Hi Mark the car looks fabulous Bentley will love it. The injections look horrendous you are soo brave ๐Ÿ˜‡ Have a fabulous weekend with your boys , we will be thinking of you Tuesday love and big hugs from us both ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜โค๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜‡xxxx

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  3. Ouch Marky!! Lovely to see you and Bernie today. Thanks for the ankle exercise demo. Good luck for the next Chemo round. Btw car looks fab, as do you. Xx

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  4. The girls and I always follow your blog and get extra news through my weekly meetings with Nathan. You are amazingly brave Mark and doing so well. Good luck for Tuesday – we will be thinking of you. The car looks fabulous and perfect for fun trips with Bentley to the beach in a the summer. Sending lots of hugs and good wishes, Monica & the girls xx

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    1. Such lovely words thank you and I am lucky to have Nathan by my side throughout this unexpected journey of mine. It was time to get a family car ๐Ÿ™‚ Lots of love to you and the girls XX Mark


  5. Hey there handsome!

    OH WOW!! you are brave with that needle and you are such a pro …by the look of the picture! Are you sure you have not ‘jabbed’ before hhmmmmm …… tee hee!

    I love the car! and Bentley looks so at home in it too!! Gota love our Bentley xxxxx

    It was wonderful to see you FT on Saturday (my time), it was short but it was great to chat to you and see you as always! Also, my bracelet has arrived … Thank you SO much! I have not taken it off since I got it yesterday! Mum’s has not arrived as yet, but let us hope it does today (Monday).

    Thinking of you for Tuesday!!! Another lot of Super Angels have been dispatched your way to support and assist you through it!!

    I love you to the moon and back and missing you tonnes! I wish I was closer to give you some HUGE KJ Hugs!!!!

    Love and hugs to you, Nathan and Bentley!
    KJ xxxx


    1. Hey KJ I wouldn’t say brave but with faced with an option to go to the clinic every day…it’s a no brainer. haha! We are always learning new things it seems. Yes Bentley has a new car and he loves it, it’s like he knows its his as well. XX Glad to hear your bracelet arrived safely, via snail mail. Thanks for the angels as always I do need and appreciate them. They really do help. Miss you love you too! And huge hugs back from all of us here. XXX Mark


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